damn
i’m so sick of feeling the way i do. i feel empty. not gud enough. every guy i’ve ever been with has either had emotional baggage or used/cheated on me. Is that all i’m worth?! if it is, please tell me because i keep falling for the guy who is out of my reach. He’s either too good for me, got a girlfriend, not interested, or too shy. I’m so sick of always thinking about guys. All my life i’ve always liked at least one guy. I usually fall for him for around four to six months and if he hasn’t acted on it i try to move on and distract myself with another guy who i usually end up falling for and once again am not good enough. Wat is it about me that isn’t right for him? right now i’m completely head over heels for a guy who has a girlfriend. i’m not going to act on it because thats wrong. I talked myself into believing he might not be that close to her and everyone else told me that too… then it’s a picture of him and her as him myspace profile background… then i thought maybe she’s not that into him… all of her comments to him are “i love you” all of them. I really really like him… i’m okay with being friends with him i will deal with that but i couldn’t cope with seeing them together and not feeling like being stabbed in the gut… i hate being so emotional. i’m such a girl. seriously. not cool.
